Falling

It's the Skype calls that end at twelve thirty in the morning, when we're both tired; waiting for the other to hang up, that make me realise that you make me so damn happy, and it would be an absolute privilege to fall in love with you. 

It Hurts

it hurts to ignore your messages,
it hurts to avoid eye contact with you,
it hurts to not be able to make you smile like I have so many times before,
it hurts to pretend that I don't like you that way, 
it hurts to sit here and act as if I don't care,
it hurts to feel this way and act as if I don't realise it.

I Can't Make You Love Me

but I wish I could.

The Moment When You Realise

You'll never love me the way I love you,
will you?

The Truth

I always ask myself:

"Why do you only talk to me,
when it's 4am,
and you're drunk?"

But then I realised,
you're broken too,
but you're too scared to admit it,
so you try to get help in the middle of the night,
or when you're in another state of mind,
because you know I'm asleep,
and you fear rejection.

Help

I'm supposed to be over you, 
so why do I keep falling for your smile?

Confusion

It's hard to tell you how much you mean to me,
It's hard to tell you that every time you smile, it makes my whole day brighter.
It's hard to tell you what I feel for you.
It's hard to tell you why you make me feel like this.
It's hard to tell myself, that I am irrevocably in love with you.

Kiss Me Goodnight

Kiss me goodnight,
and stay with me forever. 
I won't mind, however,
if you leave by the morning. 
Because I know I'm not good enough, 
and I know I'll never measure up,
but darling, I can try. 

The Reality of It All

Nothing makes me more happy,
and nothing makes me more sad,
than you. 

The Reason Why My URL Is What It Is

My name is Madison White
Maddy White
Maddy Caucasian

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